30 Days about Me- Day 2

Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears

1. Car wreck via tire blow out... weird, right!!?? So, when I was learning how to drive, my mom told me what to do if I was driving and had a tire blow out. GOOD JOB, MOM! She prepared me...she told me how to NOT press the brake pedal and to keep both hands on the steering wheel and carefully get the car to the side of the road. So, what's the problem? I am prepared, right? Well... ever since she "prepared" me for what to do, I have been SO worried about it. I have no idea why, but anytime I'm driving and run over something on the road, I make sure I have a good grip at 10 & 2 on the steering wheel JUST IN CASE whatever I hit causes the tire to blow. I don't know how to overcome this fear, but it's there nonetheless!

2. Brown Recluse Spiders. Not all spiders, just recluse ones! Don't get me wrong, if ANY spider has made my home it's residence, it's gonna get killed... BUT there have been nights I lay awake in bed scared of the POTENTIAL of brown recluse spiders getting into my bed. Where did this begin?? When i was in college, back in 1997, a girl in my dorm had a brown recluse in her bed between the sheets. She didn't know it was there until the next morning when she woke up with 13...THIRTEEN... bites on her legs. Enough said... ever since I've been a little on edge!

3. Leaving my kids. While I am not technically afraid of dying- since I know to be absent from the body is to be present with Christ (2 Corinthians 5:8), I AM afraid of leaving them alone. In my state, if both parents die, the children aren't automatically given to next of kin. They go into state care, and your family can petition the state for custody. So...here is my fear. I picture the kids...heartbroken and lost without me and my husband to take care of them. The pain and confusion they would suffer losing us... AND THEN, they don't get to go stay with family, they go to temporary placement in a foster home. I have FOUR kids... meaning, there is a chance they'd get split up because not many foster families will take in four kids all at one time. So... added to their pain and confusion and loss, we now split them up. So, the people they could turn to for support (each other) are now gone too. Granted, it's all temporary until someone in the family can reunite them, but the pain they would feel breaks my heart in two. I realize it hasn't happened... I realize that STATISTICALLY, it will probably never happen, but anytime I allow myself to think about it, I get a little freaked out!

So...that was day two... stay tuned for number 3: "Describe your relationship with your parents"